My boyfriend told me he loved me then he gave me a life changing experience?

so last week my boyfriend and i were in his truck, he told me he loved me but i was stupid, i believed him. He sleekly slid toward me on his black leather seats. I laughed, then he tickled me, every thing seemed content for all i knew.Then for some reason it was not funny anymore, nothing was funny anymore. I eventually fell asleep and he took me to his apartment. Then at about 3:30 in the morning i woke up he was still awake reading a hustler mag. He saw me and came over then gave me some wine, i gave it back then ......thee...thhh.....then..he uhh... he grabbed my face and opened my mouth he poured it in. Then i realized as i got drowsy, that he just gave me date drug but there was nothing i could do. when i woke up i was hickeyed from head to toe everywhere and i was on the side of the road. But u know whats funny he had been acting wierd since the first day he asked me for and i said no. by the way im 15 and he is 17 but i have not seen him since then. Do you think that it was a bad relationship from the beginning? Do you think that i should have seen it comein? Do you think that my scars from the cuts he gave me during the will go away? Do you know of any guys that can make me feel alive like he did in the beginning? please tell me...